Hollywood killed the hearts of men and women by making them believe a lie. Happily ever after does not exist and yet I find myself drawn to movies with happy endings.
Part of me dreams of finding a very special woman who would not only love all the things I love in life, but be a supporter of my passion to help the 144 million orphans around the globe. I dream, sometimes when I'm alone at night, that I meet a woman in unusual circumstances and we end up in a kind of love only found on the big screen.
The latest woman I've fallen for this way was Sarah Ferguson... yes the Duchess of York. Before her (and still a dream) is Rachel Weiss... growing up, it was Jane Seymour. Perhaps its something about British women that I find wonderfully fascinating.
Hollywood love only exists on the screen... and what hope is there for a man like me in my mid-40s to find someone to spend the rest of my time on earth with.
And then, some days I'm glad I'm alone... without being lonely.
Life is funny... except I'm not laughing.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Potential Delusions of Grandeur
There is no other name for it... I suffer from life-long potential delusions of grandeur (or PDG as I like to call it).
I don't think more highly of myself as some cocky humans do around the planet... in fact, just the opposite. But along side of that, I feel as if there is a potential to be great or to do great things for mankind.
I love the fact that throughout man's history, God delights in taking ordinary (or less than ordinary) people and leading them to do great things for Him. When I watch Doctor Who, I get the same sense. The Doctor-character comes along side everyday people... the kind of people you wouldn't think twice about... and they become the most important people in the whole history of the whole history.
That, perhaps, is why I find myself drawn to watching Doctor Who and reading about it. It gives me hope... almost as much hope as the Bible. (And to be truthful, sometimes more hope.) Growing up I watched Doctor Who... before I read one word out of the Bible, there was the Doctor influencing my life.
In some ways, I see how God used that escapism of the Doctor to lead me to Him. I won't go into the psychology of it all, but it's there... in me.
Yesterday I thought about writing small diary that's 10 years out... when I'm in my 50s (insert large gulp here). But I thought about what my life would be like. I'll be working around the globe with orphans in ways I cannot even imagine. Orphan World Relief will be helping millions of orphans all over the globe.
It is hard to picture sometimes with how things are right now. But it's there. And without my case of PDG, I wouldn't get off the couch. I'd go to my 9-5 job and go through life an ordinary human being. But there's no such thing... in the Lord there is so much potential. The tiniest amount of faith can cause a man to move mountains.
What will my future hold? Well, I always hope for better... not a life-style wish but a wish to be making a difference.
We've just entered 2010... a full decade into this century.
Here's to my potential in the Lord. In the TARDIS of my mind I might just nip ahead and take a look.
I don't think more highly of myself as some cocky humans do around the planet... in fact, just the opposite. But along side of that, I feel as if there is a potential to be great or to do great things for mankind.
I love the fact that throughout man's history, God delights in taking ordinary (or less than ordinary) people and leading them to do great things for Him. When I watch Doctor Who, I get the same sense. The Doctor-character comes along side everyday people... the kind of people you wouldn't think twice about... and they become the most important people in the whole history of the whole history.
That, perhaps, is why I find myself drawn to watching Doctor Who and reading about it. It gives me hope... almost as much hope as the Bible. (And to be truthful, sometimes more hope.) Growing up I watched Doctor Who... before I read one word out of the Bible, there was the Doctor influencing my life.
In some ways, I see how God used that escapism of the Doctor to lead me to Him. I won't go into the psychology of it all, but it's there... in me.
Yesterday I thought about writing small diary that's 10 years out... when I'm in my 50s (insert large gulp here). But I thought about what my life would be like. I'll be working around the globe with orphans in ways I cannot even imagine. Orphan World Relief will be helping millions of orphans all over the globe.
It is hard to picture sometimes with how things are right now. But it's there. And without my case of PDG, I wouldn't get off the couch. I'd go to my 9-5 job and go through life an ordinary human being. But there's no such thing... in the Lord there is so much potential. The tiniest amount of faith can cause a man to move mountains.
What will my future hold? Well, I always hope for better... not a life-style wish but a wish to be making a difference.
We've just entered 2010... a full decade into this century.
Here's to my potential in the Lord. In the TARDIS of my mind I might just nip ahead and take a look.
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