Potential Delusions of Grandeur

There is no other name for it... I suffer from life-long potential delusions of grandeur (or PDG as I like to call it).

I don't think more highly of myself as some cocky humans do around the planet... in fact, just the opposite. But along side of that, I feel as if there is a potential to be great or to do great things for mankind.

I love the fact that throughout man's history, God delights in taking ordinary (or less than ordinary) people and leading them to do great things for Him. When I watch Doctor Who, I get the same sense. The Doctor-character comes along side everyday people... the kind of people you wouldn't think twice about... and they become the most important people in the whole history of the whole history.

That, perhaps, is why I find myself drawn to watching Doctor Who and reading about it. It gives me hope... almost as much hope as the Bible. (And to be truthful, sometimes more hope.) Growing up I watched Doctor Who... before I read one word out of the Bible, there was the Doctor influencing my life.

In some ways, I see how God used that escapism of the Doctor to lead me to Him. I won't go into the psychology of it all, but it's there... in me.

Yesterday I thought about writing small diary that's 10 years out... when I'm in my 50s (insert large gulp here). But I thought about what my life would be like. I'll be working around the globe with orphans in ways I cannot even imagine. Orphan World Relief will be helping millions of orphans all over the globe.

It is hard to picture sometimes with how things are right now. But it's there. And without my case of PDG, I wouldn't get off the couch. I'd go to my 9-5 job and go through life an ordinary human being. But there's no such thing... in the Lord there is so much potential. The tiniest amount of faith can cause a man to move mountains.

What will my future hold? Well, I always hope for better... not a life-style wish but a wish to be making a difference.

We've just entered 2010... a full decade into this century.

Here's to my potential in the Lord. In the TARDIS of my mind I might just nip ahead and take a look.

Starting Out

You have to start some place.

Over the years I have found that the best vacation is often the past. All too often I get caught up in this crazy run away world in which we life. I don't stop, as I should, to reflect on this great gift of a life I've been given. I don't stop, as I should, to reflect on the wonderful God who made this all possible. So I thought a blog might be a good way to express thoughts of the past which are rooted in the present.

Some things you should know about me...

• I attack life (both spiritual and physical) with messy abandon.
• I have never owned anything new. My last two dogs were used. My beloved son was used (I adopted him at age 13). My car is used and given to me by my parents. But that's normal to me.
• I love to think and to feel beyond what is safe which causes headaches and heartaches, but it is simply the way I operate.
• We are all blessed (or cursed depending on your perspective) with what normal becomes for us. I was adopted by my parents when I was barely a month old.

So there it is... the beginnings of something. I hope to write daily -- take those breaks into the past so that I truly grow to appreciate what I have here and now.

~Douglas